Emo Freak !

2009-07-21T01:24:00.000-07:00

I know she will view my blog so i changed address le . only my closed friends will have de address . THanks bro and sis for advices .

2009-06-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

Today whole day i nv sms her at all .
I trying to hold my hands from calling her and sms her .
I think i did it .
But i really miss her alot .
Haiz .
She now confirm at his hse de .
But what else can i say .
Ppl know helping her pay lawyer fees .
Leonard u are useless man .
Nvm .
U are just stupid .
she can did it once to you ,
Confirm can do 2nd time de
Leonard always think that she worth it .
But does she worth ?
Yes ,
She worth it dumb fuck leonard .
Whatever .
Psycho me .
lalalalalalala.
Went starbuck drink coffee .
Talk to chee sheng and his gf .
His gf now studying psychologic .
She tell me that i having some kind of mental problem .
I keep everything to myself till i wanna explode le .
But she just simply dun understand me .
Nvm ,
I dun feel secure at all .
Scare and nervous .
Guess leonard is really dumb .
Leonard
天不怕，地不怕，可是到头来还是败给了一个"情"字 !!

ps : i still loves her lots .

2009-06-26T19:15:00.000-07:00

Yawn !!
Just woke up .
Feeling very giddy and sick .
My nose bleed again in de morning =.=
I think must be too hot le .
Dunno why nv on fan also very cold .
I think i sick le .
Too heaty somemore .
I must take good care of myself le .
Hmmm ...
Going out soon .
Ytd went to drink with friends .
In de end i drunk .
LOL .
heart pain le .
Dunno why i still miss her so much .
Must control myself by not calling her .
I will try my best not to call her de .
I listen to what ah fong say le .
She wrote a letter to ah fong .
And i found out that she keep lie to me only .
I dunno what she really want .
But i can see that she lost interest in me le .
Making use of me only bahs .
Nvm .
I am stupid =).
I going to get change le .
So just a little update here .
Bye guys .
Anithing just sms me bahs .

2009-06-26T01:50:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys . so long nv blog plus i change link .
I think i will put back my link le .
Let me update abit bahs .
Currently been busy with my NDP rehersal at kallang old police coast guard .
And been stressing with money problems .
Quarrel with my gf .
Now she say break to me .
She just say break and off her phone and went MIA .
I think she with ah fong .
I dunno why she keep asking me why i always think she with ah fong .
Cause she betray me once and i believe she can again .
Sorry to say that but i know its just my fault .
I love to control ppl .
I think u wont even come and try to see i change back my blog link le .
So is kinda good also .
Cause i gonna flirt and let her know .
I find 1 gf asap .
So that she could forget me .
I dun wan her to be so stress up .
Lots of ppl discourage me to pay her lawyer fees .
Say me stupid .
I know i am stupid .
But i really love her and this is a promise i gave her .
I cannot leave her alone .
Even though she got him i also must help her .
Love someone is not to have her but to see her happy .
This 10mnths together i only enjoy de first 5 mnths .
It is really sweet for a guy who can wait for her out from girls home .
I trust nobody or maybe some ppl than can do it .
I now at home blogging .
But hand still talking to ppl asking them to lend me $$ .
All is cause of her .
But she just simply doesnt care about her court thing also .
Her mother also gave up on her .
Should i gave up on her ?
I know lots of ppl wan me to give up on her .
But i really love her .
She went mia 2 days than ytd just call me .
But in end i quarrel with her .
How can i take it when my gf can MIA for 2 days ?
Nv tell me where is she ?
Makes me like an idiot calling around looking for her .
I bother jaslyn too much .
Sorry jaslyn .
I just worried for her .
Hope u really understand .
Sorry to trouble u .
Thanks for being there for me although we not so close .
But i dunno what to do .
I really dun wanna forget her .
I really wanna be with her .
But what she done was kinda sad for me .
She makes me totally give up hopes on her .
i think i just find smth to agitate her so that she can forget me .
Guys out there .
Pls lend me $$ if u all have .
Let me done my part as a bf pls .
nonono .
Let me done my part as her EX bf .
she just say break with me today morning and i jitao like no mood ?
nvm .
I guess she too stress with love thingy .
Shouldnt stress her too much .
Sorry to those girls .
hope that u all will forgive me when u all see this .
Sorry to treat u all as spare tire to forget her .
But i really cannot forget her just like this .
I need u girls to help me forget .
So sorry about it .
Take care all my friends
Shall blog frequently le

bb

ps: i really love her alot but i guess that she will nv be there for me when i need her .

2009-06-08T08:57:00.001-07:00

http://www.lindalmx.blogspot.com/

Take a look at my cousin blog .
She a wonder freelancer .
I found out that i will stop writing how i feel le .
I will kept it to my self .
I just wanna live life to de fullest .
As i said i earning lots of money now .
I mean i need to earn .
So pls do support and read my cousin blogs .
Once there are update i will update u guys .
Thanks alot man =))

2009-06-03T04:09:00.000-07:00

I AM SO STUPID !

i myself cannot believe that my own brother betray me .
Lots of things happening and i guess i losing friends le .
I have no more friends le .
I just wanna be alone from now on .
I going out of 534 i think .
No more le .
What i done for her is nought .
Yesterday book a table at sakura and order flower for her ,
In de end no ans my phone and reply my sms .
What a great day yesterday .
Its our 10 mnths anniversary .
I heard from her mother that she at ah fong hse .
LOOK AT THIS .
WOOOHOOO SONG BO .
I WEARING GREEN CAP .
LEONARD IS TURNING CRAZY LE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-16T05:02:00.000-07:00

Useless me .

Ever wonder why i always in my blog say i useless ?
Let me tell u all now de reason .
Cause my gf spend $$ of other guys .
I cannot give her ani $$ at all .
This few day is like shit .
I finally understand what is no money de feeling le .
I had alot of conflicts with my gf .
I feeling very bad .
She going to court on this coming Wednesday .
I dunno what to do sia but to accompany her .
But in de end what i get was she prefer to meet 2 days 1 time .
Cause she say everyday meet my attitude will come back de same like last time .
U know how hurting ma girl ?
U changed .
U no longer de stephanie i know .
I like losing everything .
I owe lots of ppl $$$ .
But i still have to bear de consequences myself .
Today went to old folks home .
Those old folks damn poor things .
I pity all of them .
They told me to earn as much $$ as i can and dun depend on other ppl .
Depend on urself .
Trust urself .
Is this all true ?
Why am i feeling that i am drifting away from stephanie ?
She my everything .
I give up everything for her yet why cant she do it also ?
i dunno la .
I feel like dying .
Someone help me pls .
I think i go drink myself alone tonight le .
Bb all .
I still love stephanie always .

2009-04-01T05:54:00.000-07:00

Haiz What should i do ?

So long no blog le .

Now i shall blog and update what i am doing ba .

My GF now got some trouble with de law again .

But i will try my best to be by her side .

Get the best lawyer for her .

I will never leave her .

But i dunno i can tolerate her how long .

She is different from de person when she is with me .

Over de phone and sms she thinks that i am very irritating .

Am i that irritating ?

But in person ,

She will stick to me closely .

What i want from her is nothing but just not to treat me differently .

I very long never check her phone le .

Yesterday ask from her permission to check her phone .

In de end she also go delete sms .

I guess is things that i dun wanna see .

But why cant she just let me see .

Is she really hiding from me something ?

I know she scare i angry .

Should i leave her to do things she like ?

Let her do what she wants ?

I really dunno what she want .

She just simply dun care me now .

I guess maybe she dun really know me .

Her mother told me that she still cant forget her ex ( melchers )

I choose not to believe her mother .

But why i am still thinking about this matter ?

Not say i dun trust her lor .

But i just bu fang xin lor .

Does she really knows how i feel anot ?

I very scare to lose her .

If anithing happen to her what will i do ?

I say i will wait but can i do it ?

I told Yuting about it and she gave me her support on waiting for her .

But she ask me dun put too much hope on this relationship .

I guess is cause she still not being able to settle down and commit her everything to me .

Haix baby .

Pls treat me good will you ?

hais .

I loves you still .

2009-03-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

WHAT SHOULD I DO ?

Baby i am sorry .
I dun wan this to happen de .
I dun wan people to look down on me .
I just want you to stay with me .
Live with me .
Why izzit so hard ?
I really just wanna sleep with you every night .
If you sleep overnight than you go home in the morning ,
Than what will my mother think ?
She sure say you think this is hotel ar ?
I just so useless .
My mother is just so frank and straight forward .
I am a useless bf .
I hate myself .
I starting to hate my family .
I wanna run away .
Haix .
Baby .
I love you la !!

Baby ,
I know that you wanna changed yourself to de better .
Baby lets prove to everyone that we can survive on our own .
We dun need to depend on people whatever we do .
We can do things we like .
Baby as long as you with me .
Everything will be ok le .
I will do anithing just for you .
So sorry keep doing stupid things and pls dun hurt urself .
Cause when you feel pain or what ,
My heart also ache just for you .
I miss you .
Hope you can stay by me forever =)

I sometimes really doubt myself whether i really can change myself anot .
Does she knows what i want ?
I just want her to be with me whenever i book out .
Thats all .
Izzit really very hard ?
But she going out later le .
She know i dun like her to meet with guys de .
But still i have to act as if nothing happen .
Dun wanna stress her le .
Just want her to be happy only .
Haiz .
Stress liao lo .
Headache .
Aiya later reach home just take my medicine and go to sleep can le .
Dun care so much le .
I know that she dun wanna live with me cause of my family
She suffering alot .
But what can i do ?
I feel fuck up now .
cant even protect the person i love .
Cant give her a good place to sleep .
Have to follow me where ever i sleep .
I so useless .
I also wanan move out but i got de freedom ma ?
Why am i so useless ?
I ask her go home and sleep lo and dun stay le ba .
But it hurts .
It is proving to her parents that i cannot take good care of her .
Thats why she moving back home .
Haix baby ,
I am sorry .
Haix .
Since you choose to go out with your friends i wont oblige le .
Just go ba .
I wont care about you le .
Than dun ask me why i am like that .
You force me to really wash my hands off from you .
I ask you to come back cause i feel not safe .
But u give me attitude .
You just go do what you like ba .
I sick and tired of it le .
i really hate it .
I scare things happen again .
Now i truly understand that if you lost your freedom you are just like losing your loves one .
Got car also heck care you le .
Fuck la.
Is death the best solution ?
Someone guide me .
I wan her by my side now hais .

2009-03-20T08:54:00.000-07:00

WHATS THE PROBLEM NOW ?

I think is my fault again .

I just worried for her than i make her angry ?

She told me awhile more .

But do you know i waited for 3 hours ?

What did i do wrong ?

She very pek cek i better dun call her or else later quarrel .

I dun wann to quarrel with her .
she promise to break with her bf today .

If she back with me ,

Tml i will do something that she wanted me to do long time ago .

I promise i will do it .

Baby sorry ,

dun wish to quarrel with you .

I still waiting for ur sms and call .

Meanwhile still folding it =)

Loves you many many Baby steph .

2009-03-20T01:51:00.000-07:00

WHAT SHOULD I DO ?

Now on my way to MRT station .

I jsut went to view my baby Friendster and i saw that she accepted my testi .

But she never replied my testi nor call or sms me .

I dunno what to do now .

I really scare .

Early in the morning i already felt hurt le .

How am i gonna continue my life ?

I used to her .

I loved her .
Or am i just a fool to her ?

Baby ,

the 7 kisses you gave me is not forgotten .

I want you baby .

Why you ignore me ?

I still saw a picture that you took with him .

And i really dunno whether u wanna break with him or you are playing with my feelings ?

Baby ,

I trust you .

But my heart still aches like hell .

Am i uesless ?

Cant even keep the girl i love beside me .

Baby you forgive me le .

But why i cant see any Changes ?

Will you meet me on sat night ?

Will you be free on sunday ?

I really dunno .

I wanna talk on de phone with you now but still cannot get through .

I already in MRT station le .

I manage to get a seat and guess what .

I starting to fold lucky star for my baby .

I do it on MRT .

Whether you all believe it anot .

Cause i wanna complete that bottle full of lucky star .

I been thinking how than i can be back with her but i guess i am uesless .

She never reply my sms nor call me .

Is she putting effort ?

I saw de picture of de roses makes me remind of de promises you gave me .

This wont be de la st time i give you roses .

Baby understand me pls .

I really loves you and hope you know it .

Why somehow cant we talk about it ?

I wanna open a joint account with you .

I wanna register in de ROM with you .

I wanna live together with you .

I wanna be your good hubby and take up de vows that was given in de ROM .

I am willing to take care of you regardless you are sick or old .

Baby will you give me de chance ma ?

My heart really aches it really hurts .

Baby i love you .

Call me soon .

I miss you .

I suddenly felt very pain .

I thought who have just punch me .

But i found out that is my gastric pain le .

Now i understand you hurt baby .

Its unbearable .

I stop folding my star le .

It really hurts alot .

Baby ,

Now combo sia .

Heartaches finger pain than gastric pain .

But nvm .

Gastric pain is still not worst than heartaches .

I miss you lots .

hais .

How i wish is was yesterday .

When you hug me ,

the time freeze .

Baby ,

I love you .

I now at lakeside MRT station .

I been thinking hard where to bring steph baby go on sat night and sunday .

I think i better dun pin too much hope on it .

She told me she will break with him when her bf starts school .

I guess is this coming monday but does she know every second she not with me i felt hurt .

My heart hurts alot .

I know what is true pain .

She gave de hurt is much more worse than poh suan .

I shivering in cold now .

What i want from her is simple .

Just to be with her .

Why cant she call me even for awhile or sms me ?

I think she is sleeping now .

Does her bf now really treat her better than me ?

To me i know is de fact but i willing to change for her .

I willing to be even better than her bf .

I dunno what to do .

Do you know why i dun eat ?

Just to save money to buy ring with you .

Haix hope that you could be with me .

Baby call me quick !!!

I cannot think alot .

When i tend to think too much i get serious headache and heartache .

I longing for her .

Is she trying to 2 time me or test me ?

I really dunno what to do ?

I cannot wait so long le .

Dear steph ,

Understand me pls la .

I really cannot tahan le .

I really stress till wanna crazy le .

I think i soon also got depression .

I wanna bring you out for movie .

I wan to go for couple seats with you at cathay .

I wanna do lots of stuffs with you .

But do i still have de time ?

I see the photo you taken with him .

Kissing you so happily .

Are you telling me that you love him also .

Maybe izzit time for you to choose either one of us ?

Izzit true that i might be left out ?

You dun even care about me .

What you told are lies ?

Girl pls tell me that i am wrong .

Cause i really cannot afford to lose you .

I was late exactly one day .

I so disappointed in my self .

Sorry baby.

I really love you .

Maybe action speaks louder than words .

But you dun even wanna give me a chance to talk to you more .

How can i prove my action to you ?

Baby do you really understand how i feel ?

remember all de good times we spend together ?

Just to see you for awhile i went to orchard to meet you for lunch only ?

After camp straight go find you to send you back to girl's home ?

Fetch you home when you discharge ?

Welcome you and congrats on your new freedom ?

You remember when you say you want what kind of perfume .

you nv ask me buy but i also auto go buy ?

Anna sui and amore amore ?

Does all this trying to tell people that i treat you no good ?

Yes i admit i shout at you in times .

Ask you do things that u dun like and serve me .

But i already promise le ,

I wont do it again .

What must i do than you will trust me ?

Can you teach me ?

I really dunno what to say le .

I say le ,

I willing to give up everything just for you baby stephanie .

Now finish lunch time le .

But she still haven reply my sms nor call me .

What is she doing ?

Sleeping ?

I really lost sia .

baby what you doing ?

Do you know that i alone waiting for you to come meet me ?
Do you know without you accompany me i felt not safe at all ?

I really feel like dying le .

The pain is unbearable .

Please bring me out of this torture will you ?

I cannot take it animore .

Hais .

Assist me out of this will you ?

Only you can do it baby .

I cannot take it le .

I called her so many times .

sms her .

All no reply ,

All no return call .

Am i that worthless to her ?

My blog finally write alot of things le .

but ithink lack of picture only .

If i am back with her ,

I will try to update the things we done everyday .

I jsut wanna be with her close izzit that bad ?

Am i not worth her love ?

I really regret alot man .,

Really regret alot .

I just wanna be with her izzit hard ?

I should not treat her bad .

But my parents and friends are helping me and advicing me .

Hope to be back with her .

Haiz .

Love you lots baby stephanie .

I guess i really just bear de pain ba .

She at bf house le most likely .

She not at home .

I dunno what to say .

She told me she ton at void deck but 1plus in de morning she online her friendster .

Baby are you trying to cheat me or what ?

Why you dun even bother to care about me ?

I say what i say le

I promise what i will do le .

I done nothing wrong now .

What makes you punish me so harshly .

I guess i just have to admit that i LEONARD is USELESS .

I am no longer last time leonard .

I am USELESS .

Just finish bathing under de rain .

Is so damn good .

How i wish the rain could wash away my sin .

Calling her but phone still not through .

Haix .

2009-03-19T04:14:00.000-07:00

What Should I do ?

She was with me now .
She held my hand tight .
I can feel My blood rushing through my whole body .
I love de way she held my hand .
I felt that i now more cannot let her leave me .
I will grab her back .
I wanna let everyone else know that i leonard can still treat my GF DE BEST !!
But now i cannot bear to let go of her hand .
I really wan her to stay with me .
But she meeting shermaine and her bf go orchard .
What should i do ?
I left with nothing le .
I am lost again .
Baby dun leave me can ?
Come meet me tonight will you ?
I simply miss u lots .
i nv miss anione like that so deep b4 .
I giving up everything for you .
Hope you really can sense it .
I wanna be with you forever .
I LEONARD KOH MEANS WHAT I SAY .
I love you baby muacks .
Dun ever leave me plss ...

2009-03-18T23:21:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm.....

Now i am in raffles hospital .
I accompany my mother to see a doctor .
I tried calling her a few times but she never answer .
I guess she is too tired to wake up and answer my call .
I got lots of things to say to her .
I dunno what shall i do as i now left with nothing .
I think i need an answer from her .
If really no chance than i will move out of simei and stay over at my sister house .
I will cut my hair botak and i will be a quiet person whom will seldom talks le .
Lets see what she say ba .

Sometimes i dun really get .
Why you sometimes treat me so good sometimes treat me so bad ?
Do you know how much hurt i feeling now ?
I starting to scare of you .
You just blew hot and cold towards me .
I guess i just Have to bear it .
You said give you some time to break with him as you cannot find and flaws in him .
I see no reason why .
If wan break just say break lo .
Cannot mehs ?
Izzit really hard ?
Hais .
Bless me hard later on.
She coming to meet me .
Now waiting for her to come up only .
Baby i love you =(

2009-03-18T18:45:00.000-07:00

IS SHE REALLY COMING ?

Now the time is 9.46am .
I waited for her the whole night .
I was folding de lucky star to pass it to her de whole night .
Make till my hand hurts .
I cannot complete it .
I fell asleep .
Fold till my hand pain .
Each of de lucky star i wrote "baby i love you , sorry "
baby , Can we go back to the past ?
Where u care for me ?
Where i can always see you when i open my eyes ?
I always opened my eyes seeing u not around makes me feel weird .
U got your bf le .
Is this going to happen like poh suan ?
Do i still got de chance ?
How long have i need to wait ?
I really lost .
I always shout at her .
Is this retribution ?
I dunno myself also .
I guess things really cannot turn out de way i want .
Really wished for her forgiveness .
Just a last chance needed .
I smsed her yesterday and she promise to come find me in de morning .
Only when de moment she can leave her hse .
But is she making effort ?
I hope she does .
But i smsed her till now still no reply .
Dun dare to call her .
Scare her bf with her now .
I guess i am gone le .
Hopeless le .
Yesterday take another 2 seasick pill to sleep .
But cannot sleep till 4am than sleep .
Than 9am wake up .
Look around and only saw my parents and brother .
She's not here .
Baby where are you ?
I miss you !!
Is things falling apart ?
PLS TELL ME YOU ARE JOKING .
I really cannot take it le .
I suffering from hurt .
Am i useless ?
Baby pls scold me .
Scold me till i wake up .
Shout at me till i wake up .
I felt very useless .
What should i do if she dun comes today ?
Will she come ma ?
Yes ?
No ?
I really dunno .
Dear blog ,
Save me from this .
God bless me .
God save me from this .
I really miss her alot .
I miss her hug and everything .
Only she can give me de warmth that i need .
She say she cannot dont admit that she miss me .
But does her love for me is true ma ?
I dun wan empty promises .
What should i do ?
hais i dunno .
Just waiting for her to come my hse nw .
Or should i go find her ?
I really dunno also .
But things always turn out de way i dun wan .
Hais .
Baby ,
U said that i forget 1 promise that u gave me .
That you still love me lots .
I dunno now whether to believe or not .
I am scared .
Pls come save me will you ?
Save me from this world of lonely .
Baby I NEED YOU .
Baby I LOVE YOU .

2009-03-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Is Everything Over ?

Today is my first time sailing in de LST .
I volunter to go for this 3days 2 night sailing to look out for pirates and in de end ,
I was cheated .
I was told to be pirate .
This is an operation exercise .
But nvm .
The sailing was not bad .
No seasick but only got love sick .
I miss my baby steph alot .
Although she promise me but i still thinking about it .
Baby , I am sorry .
I truly sorry about my attitude .
Promise you to be a better guy if you are back with me .

Currently now i am on my way back to singapore .
I been thinking alot what will happen ?
I ask ah fong to help me get roses .
Tonight she promise to come meet me .
I intend to give her de flower and ask for her forgiveness .
I been thinking what will i do if she dun forgive me ?
Wait for her or move on ?
What if she dun even wanna meet me ?
haix .
Very stress .
I been thinking of dying seriously .
She say she will break with his bf and come back to me .
I hope all her words are true .
I am so useless .
Cant even keep de girl i love by my side .
Watching her suffering when she with me .
I always want face than she dun wan face mehs ?
Haix .
I been taking seasick pills just to fall asleep .
If dun have this medicine i think i also cannot sleep .
I taken 17 tables total for de whole sailing .
Very stressful .
Girl pls trust me .
Please give me just a last chance to prove myself that i will change .
I should heed my father advice .
Should not wait till loss le than regret .
Hurt my hand during today operations .
Handcuff me somemore .
Makes me remind of de day i lost my freedom.
Baby, we gone through lots of things .
I waited for you when you are in girls home .
U waited for me when i am in QRP .
Is this all false ?
I know that time i hong is wrong de .
But i really sorry .
Baby pls understand me .
I will try my best to understand you also .
I always used to brag that i understand girls .
But now i am truly wrong .
I dun understand my gf at all .
God please give me a last chance to be with her and give me a chance to prove myself that i can still be a almost perfect guy for my baby .
I willing to give up anithing just for her .
Even it means my life .
I WONT ASK HER BUY FOOD FOR ME LE .
I WONT SHOUT AT HER LE .
I WILL DOTE ON HER .
I WILL CARE FOR HER .
I WILLING TO USE MY WHOLE LIFE TIME JUST TO TAKE CARE OF HER NO MATTER SHE SICK OF WHAT .
I WILL ALWAYS TRULY LOVES HER .

BABY , I'M SORRY !!

My handphone finally got reception le .
I smsed her no reply .
Called her no reply .
Called her mother ,
she was not at home .
I very worried about her .
Baby where are you ?
Can you faster sms me or call me ?
I miss you lots .
Baby will you come tonight ?
Will you be back with me tonight ?
Will i still be able to take care of you ?
I am really lost now .

I just called ah fong .
She told ah fong that she not coming over to find me .
Is this what i waiting for going to be in nought ?
What am i going to do ?
STRESS AR !!!
Tomorrow finally off .
Talk to my staff about it and he approve .
Friday than go back duty .
I buy so many duty is just to give her money for allowance .
Scare she never eat .
I nv eat so that i could save abit of money for her to use .
But in de end i get back in reply was " when u come back i pay u back " .
Baby , This is not what i want .
Izzit really destiny brought us together .
Fate torn us apart ?
Why things turn out this way ?
Why cant things turn out de way i want ?
The world is really unfair now .
I am lost in words .
Guess i really not worth her .
Her bf does ba .
I am USELESS .
LEONARD KOH U ARE DAMN USELESS !!.

She answered my phone le .
Her bf and her now at her home eating dinner .
I guess de mother also know le .
I think its really over between us le .
My heart aches alot .
Really hurts .
I really felt like crying .
It hurts lots .
I swear it really hurts .
She promise to come find me ,
But she never make it .
She promise she will break with her bf and be back with me .
But she never did it .
I guess its really over between us le .
It hurts .

Now currently in my staff car .
He sending me towards tanah merah MRT station .
I look outside de window.
I can feel that my cheek is cold .
I felt tears dripping down my cheek .
It really hurts .
I cannot take it animore .
What should i do ?
She with her bf leh .
Why things happen like poh suan ?
I told her b4 that i tends to regret after lossing things .
WHY AM I LIKE THAT !!!
Is she testing me or reall come hard on me ?
Pls tell me that you are just joking or testing me .
Hais .
I guess its really over .
Flower i think i keep till it wither ba .

2009-03-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

Things Aint The Same Animore .

Lots Of things Happen Recently .
I have no time to blog aniway .
Ppl Hiong me .
Lost alot of Money .
Owe alot of people money .
Me and my baby no more le .
She break with me lerhs .
I think is cause due to my attitude again .
What i always want was face .
But guys are like that .
I am like that .
I really got nothing else to say le .
She told me she will nv leave me .
Only i can leave her .
All became packs of lies .
I had enough le .
Not gonna step into a new relationship .
I guess i just need to go to work everyday .
And everythings gonna be alright .
This whole week sailing and duty .
Tml and sunday duty again .
BUYING MORE DUTY PLS >.<
Than following on monday gonna sailing for 3days straight .
This gonna be fun .
But i miss her lots .
Hais .
Someone teach me what to do pls .
I am lost .

2009-03-01T02:40:00.000-08:00

ROAR !!!

SIANZ AR . SO LONG NV BLOG LE .
This few days very busy .
Alot of duty to do .
Went to see my mother in the hospital .
She went for a operation .
Its hurts me alot seeing her in pain .
MUMMY STAY STRONG PLS .
I love my mother .
Hope that she get well soon .
Hais .
Life been so boring .
I wanna earn many many MONEY !!!
Someone help me with that pls !!!

Baby ,
Now my baby beside me talking to other guys .
LOLS .
1st time siol for me to see my girl talking to other guys .
Aiya , dun care lerhs .
I dun wan my relationship to end up another failure also .
Actually alot of things happen but just keep quiet will do .
CAUSE I LAZY BLOG =x
Dear just wanna let u know i still lost trust in you .
Hope that the trust will come back asap ba .
Love you still =) x33

2009-02-15T05:08:00.000-08:00

Happy Belated Valentines Day to all .

Sorry Readers for not blogging for so long .
Have been very busy with my works and stuffs .
Lets talk about how i spend my yesterday and today ba .

Yesterday was valentines day .
My gf bought me a watch wor .
The brand of the watch was from ellesse .
Thanks dear for de beautiful watch .
She spend more than half of her pay for it .
Dear thanks alot i really love it alot .
And she wrote a card for me .
Plus a bottle full of lucky stars and and cute couple bear .
Dear , sorry was unable to give u anithing .
Hope you understand the situation i am in .
Spend the whole morning and afternoon at my house with her .
Than around 3 plus decided to go drink starbuck .
Than i went down together with her .
Had abit of aguement cause she say valentines day nv bring her out .
Dear actually i really went to book de cable car candle lit dinner de .
But no slot till 9 plus than got slot .
Somemore i got probation i cannot go till so late .
SRY SRY =(
After that we slack at starbuck than came along alfred benny guo xian .
Than went to Kopitiam and met ah fong and aaron there .
Than after they eat we decided to go party world at loyang .
Guo xian nv go only .
Only me , my gf , ah fong , aaron , alfred , benny go .
Than after reach there went in and started to sing le .
lets cut short .
After that gary and ah tong join us .
Than sing sing sing and drink .
My gf DRUNK !! -,-
Than after that we cab home .
Can see that my gf was happy as all my friend was singing with her happily =x
Than she like drunk drunk de show me alot of stupid things .
Haha so cute lor .
Than reach home bath le .
She still able to tian fan that my mother cook de and we eat tgt .
Than after that i go dota and POOF !!
She off to sleep le . =.=
Thats all for yesterday .

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY GARY !!

Tomorrow was gary birthday .
So we decided to eat dinner today .
Today dinner have lots of us .
There is me , ah fong , benny , steve , ivan , lao dua , joan , aaron , sebest , ah tong and Finally BIRTHDAY BOY .
We had quite a nice dinner and finally de cake session =.=
We bought a mango cake for Gary .
After singing all de birthday songs and we have to sabo gary le .
He been running away always since last time i know him .
So this time we make sure he never run .
His face was like so cramp when he have to use his mouth to bite out de candle that was put deep inside de cake by lao dua .
Than when he ai mai ai mai .
Than laodua take de whole cake and SMASH AT HIS FACE !!!
When i saw that i quickly turn around and run and he CHASED ME !!
He threw a flying cake towards me and it hit my shirt and hand .
KNS , also not me sabo de also kanna .
Than i also dunno how i injured my leg .
Till now so pain lor .
Complain to my gf but she like dun care dun care de .
Nvm ba .
Lazy type le .
See when i free i blog again ba .
Take care guys =)
Tomorrow still got guard duty so must rest early .
BB ALL =)

PS: Dear i loves u lot . Although u not my perfect one but u are still de best among all my ex gf . Dear dun ever leave me , i scare of empty promises le .

2009-02-01T06:36:00.000-08:00

BORING !!!!

Currently now in camp blogging again .

I been doing duty this 2 days sia .
Saturday and sunday .

Saturday duty is i buy de .

$100 for 1 day duty .
Sleep de whole day only so its ok =) .

I now wanna save many many $$ for my car .

My gf is planning a schedule for me to follow .

Make sure that i cannot anihow spend money le .

But how to save money when alot of festive is coming .

Eg : Me and my gf 6 mnths Anniversary and Valentine ?

OMG !!! She told me she wanna buy a perfume for me .

But what type of perfume i want , i also dunno .

I prefer a watch but nvm .

As for her , i dunno what to buy for her le .

Bought her all the things she want .

Maybe i thinking of getting a couple ring wor .

But if i buy de couple ring i think cannot go for my car enrollment le .

STRESS !!!

PLS GIVE ME MORE DUTY TO BUY.

P.S : Dear , Dun Ever Leave Me . I Will Cherish Every Moment Being With You .

2009-01-26T06:03:00.000-08:00

Firstly : Happy Chinese New Year To You All =)

Today is chinese new year 1st day wor .

But currently in camp doing guard duty =.=

Nvm . This year hope that is going well and smooth of me .

I remember last year de today ,

On de same night Chu XI .

My groups of friends and me went to clark quay to Celebrate .

But in de end , we end up fighting =.=

Went home with bruises and tired .

Chu 1 also nv go pai nian .

But lucky is angpao my brother take for me .

This year also same my ang pao all they take for me .

Abit little but nvm .

Now waiting to book out to go enroll for my driving license .

I totally no mood to celebrate CNY .

I miss angsio lots .

I was wondering how is he doing inside .

I simply cant get him off my mind .

I now hoping to tell him that ,

LEONARD IS STILL WAITING FOR YOU =(

Yesterday Chu xi night ,

My laopo come find me wor .

haha , she took a cab from sengkang down just to meet me .

I felt very happy and i went down to fetch her .

Went up to my house awhile ,

Talk to my father and poof !!

Off we go to starbuck to meet my friends .

They were planning to go Ang Pao river .

But i got probation cannot go .

So i decided to send my gf home and go drink at KPT(bo bian near my hse ) .

After sending my gf home ,

I went to kopitiam to drink .

But was not feeling very well (headache)

So i decided not to drink much and heed my gf advice .

Dear u see i listen wor .

Than i enjoy last night gathering .

It been a long time since all of us sit together and talk .

But there is still a few missing ones .

hais nvm .

Than went home play Combats arms till morning .

Pek cek heard my gf photobucket password is her ex name.
Forget it .
Shall end here .
Happy CNY all again .
x33 My Laopo =)

2009-01-22T20:29:00.000-08:00

Currently at home blogging wor .
Today my friend put me aeroplane .
Just finish Duty reach home .
So sianz . nothing to do so come blog .
Stupid ah tong now come and talk cock with me .
I wanna go swimming >.<
Yesterday during duty my gf father called .
He warned me sia .
First time in my life i kanna threathen yet cannot do anithing .
Talk to my baobei about it and decided to talk with my gf .
If things cannot talk well , i dunno what to do le .
Dear afterall i still loves u lots =x
Bb =) blog tonite or what lor .

2009-01-21T07:40:00.000-08:00

Sorry Readers ,
It been very long since i blog .
Shall update you my current status =)

This few days i keep going orchard find my gf .
She is my baby and nv will i leave her .
Sorry that i have been flirting behind her back .
I regret alot dear , i promise you not to hong le .
Spending alot of money recently .
Waiting for her to discharge .
New year coming .
Hope everything will be anew for de both of us .
x33 Baby JoyceStephanie Tan Shui Ling .

My Baobei Nu Er .
Daddy here to tell you sorry that i like that say you .
You not so shui bian .
i believe that you will learn how to take care of yourself .
Daddy loves you alot .
Muacks .
Hope that you understand how i feel that time .
I trust your judgement .
I will always be there for you de .
x33 Baobei 1314 .

2009-01-04T04:59:00.001-08:00

I hate people who lied to me .
I hate people who cheat me .
I hate people to busted me .

FK OFF FROM MY LIFE EVERYONE OUT THERE !!!!!!

2009-01-02T12:23:00.000-08:00

Today i made my Baobei Nu Er (YinHui) cry .
Heart damn pain .
I am crying inside .
Save me someone .
Sorry Baobei =(
Bad mood .

2008-12-31T22:38:00.000-08:00

Firstly I would Love To Say Happy New Year ALL ...

It been a long time since i create this blog . Thanks to poyo . I decided to use this blog link le . To pour all my unhappiness and happiness to it . There is something i would like to say today .

I have a Gan Nu Er (YinHui) , in my eyes i see that she those kind of guai guai de . She from last time secondary 3 till now no BF . I admit that she's pretty and i thought the reason for her to not to have BF is that she wanted to concentrate on her studies which i prefer that alot . So i just intro 1 of my friend call Yong Han to her . I didnt expected that Yong Han jio dao her using only like 1 day ? From what i see the guai guai girl is no longer there le . Why am i having this kind of weird feeling ? I sms-ed 2 person and told them about it . But things aint the same animore . In my eyes now she like so shui bian le . If u know my past u will know why i say that . Haiz .

Sry Nu er . I dont mean to say you de . But this is what u showed me . I wont contact u as often as last time le . I dun wish people to say i am de 3rd party or i Ka LJW behind his back . What i can do now is only wish that u both last long . Lynnette and Poyo Thanks for being there for me . Currently now in camp doing Guard Duty . KAN PUA SIANZ . No mood to do anithing . Shall end here . BB ALL =(

2008-10-27T06:20:00.000-07:00

Thanks poyo for doing the blog for me

2008-10-27T06:02:00.001-07:00

POYO HERE !

*Emo Freak !*

Emo Freak !